So, without getting into too many details, I've learned that I may not be able to donate if my health doesn't improve in time (i.e. by April 26th). I'm not sure how to feel about this. There's a little girl out there who is counting on me and my body isn't cooperating. I'm frustrated, tired, relieved, annoyed and overwhelmed.
I feel guilty about feeling relieved if I can't give my marrow. I mean, don't I think that I'm brave, generous and altruistic?
Overall, I find comfort in knowing that 1. the situation is out of my control and 2. I'm doing everything I can to make it possible for me to donate.
I hope to know by the middle of this upcoming week. Until then...